3 Days Smoke-Free and No Dead Bodies!

Well, I finally quit talkin' and bought the patch. I am smoke-free since Friday - yay Will!I am having some crazy dreams, though. I think I'll have to take the patch off before I go to bed tonight. It is hotter than fresh shit here, and that makes it hard enough to sleep... Our AC is, to state it mildly, *underperforming. We have therm set to 80 and it still can't get below 82-84 degrees in here. That would also be a contributor to my ongoing sense of exhaustion and irritability, no?Math test today - I thought it was pretty easy. Here's hoping I wasn't wrong. I have to ace all these classes now. I finally got all 5 transcripts from my previous college career and I have to say, I still can't figure out how I managed to get my first degree. Ack.Spiritually, I'm feeling drawn back toward the esoteric again. I tend to cycle, each time with new eyes. I was reading a thread on Real Magick on Yahoo Groups about working with angels, and for the first time I was not immediately repelled by the idea. Before, I tended to jump right to the "That sounds too *Christian" and I don't want anything to do with that." Whatever! Reactionism is not helpful either! So, whereas before, when I was working more with the Eastern mystery trads, I've swung back 'round to the Western trads, so I'm poking around. I was just reading an article called "Magick Theory" at http://www.sacred-magick.com (which has some good resources, even in the free section)which is a nice little primer on what it implies. What struck me about the article, though was the reference to the Zen concept of Satori, and in looking it up, it sounds like what I felt like I had in meditation last week. Then the article nicely puts to words the concepts of our microcosm and the macrocosmic world without, which is essentially what I saw in my meditation.Huh. Now that I think about it, I was just talking to my good friend who was telling me about the daily request that the Ultimate Observer make itself known to him in recognizable ways (he recently saw What the Bleep) and I wonder if that's what just happened here. I didn't make that request, though, but it does seem synchronicitous that I encountered allusions to my meditative visions in an article I picked to read that I probably wouldn't have normally.